压力

真的是压力，几天了，一直发梦，睡不好。

明天揭晓 biopsy result 活检结果

说不忐忑和担心，是骗你的。

可能，是自己对结果还存在希望。

Second Ultrasound To Confirm

Arrived at Prince Court Medical Centre around 815. Was scheduled for scanning by radiologist, Dr Sumitra, on my left beast. This is to confirm if the lump in my left breast need further action or not.

During the ultrasound, doctor advised me for biopsy. I nodded and my tears start rolling down my face. Doctor said she has concern about it. I can clearly see from the ultra sound machine that, the shape of the lump is in irregular shape. Its shape is totally different than what I can see during doctor Harjit's scan. I guess either is better machine can give clearer image or my own test before meeting doctor Harjit has caused some bruise onto my breast and therefore giving false image.

I went up and submit my company's medical card for admission, to get ready for the biopsy. AXA, my company's insurance refused to issue Guarantee Letter for the admission. According to the insurance company, admission for biopsy is only claimable afterwards when confirm operation is involved. End up, I submit my own insurance medical card for admission.

During the wait for insurance's approval outside of doctor's Harjit room, doctor Sumitra came up to meet doctor Harjit. After think twice, I ask doctor Sumitra again, "Doctor, by looking at its image, what's the chance this is not cancerous?". Doctor's replied: "I won't simply suggest biopsy to my patients if it is not something worrying. I only do it when I have concern on it. You have to be prepared for the worst."

 

这次，左边乳房有硬块

 上个月，也不记得几号了，发现左胸有一个硬块。

注意了一个月，也还是在。就立刻约了 Prince Court Medical Centre 的 Dr Harjit Kaur 检查。

她说，"Should not be something worrying. But I need second opinion on this."

所以，17日，要回去见 radiology doctor, Dr Sumitra，让她检查后，看看是否cancer还是发炎。

如果是发炎，吃药就可以了。如果是有怀疑是癌，就要做biopsy了。😢

我最担心的5年、10年复发，是否真的会发生。😞 今年第9年了，还有两个月就10年了。

Knitting project: Hope

Hot off the needles
Pattern: https://www.ravelry.com/patterns/library/hope-12
Project: https://www.ravelry.com/projects/pvchong/hope

Logitech Multi Device Mouse M590

Bought this mouse for myself as birthday gift.
This mouse can connect to 2 devices by a switching button. Can even copy content from device A and paste into device B. Will have to test this function out soon.
Original price is RM102.88 from IT Comp @ Lazada, with discount RM10.29, paid RM92.59.

老花

月头，已经配戴了老花眼镜。第一天，不是很习惯，觉得很晕。现在已经习惯了，不戴反而觉得不习惯。

其实，去年开始，已经知道老花来了。低头吃饭的时候，已经看不清楚碗里面的饭粒。但那时候，看手机和电脑荧幕都没有问题。直到今年头，每天早上起身看手机的时候，都觉得蒙查查，才决定去配戴一副老花眼镜的。

3个半月，应该足够了吧，足够让自己开拓一条新路。。。
希望做得到。。。太久没有新的抱负了。

Reminder: Be Low and Hide

Am not sure if this is my problem or others'. Many cases, communications broke down and have bad starting of meeting. Only after a hard and long debate, almost towards the middle of expected meeting duration, then I got what she intended to share and ideas. Sigh...

If she cannot change, I think I have to change to be more low profile and hide myself. Just follow and do whatever requested.

I really should catch up more in terms of technology in order to continue surviving with respect...

Old age now, felt tired...

彻底失望

6年前的事件还不够衰，现在还来一件。。。名字再也不能用，也不能出国了。
彻底失望。
没了指望。

不会再和你出去，不想被你佗衰。。。还好意思在人面前班门弄斧。